What on Earth has happened to The Box of Rocks?!?!?!
Well, I'd like to say that I've spent the first ten days of this new year doing something very constructive, but I haven't.
I struggled through the anniversary of my son, Clint's death on January 2nd. Seventeen years... Honestly, some years it goes by with a tug or two, along with the memories. And then other years (like this year), it slams into me like a hurricane. Hurricane Clint. I can't stop the playback that goes over all the details of his life and death-they play like a movie on a continuous loop through my brain. I can see, feel, and smell the realness of it. Not to mention the what ifs that always follow.
But, I made it through, just like I do every year, and come out on the other side of it with a fresh perspective. I have no doubt that I am who I am because of his short life and the strength it took to watch and direct as his mother.
So, needless to say, I've been in a bit of a funk. But I'm MUCH better now.....
Then it got cold! REALLY cold. Like 2 degrees cold. Not so bad if you cozy up next to the fire with your cup of hot cocoa and your laptop. Well, since my laptop is all goofy and strung out on Coke Zero, I don't have that luxury. I can get online and browse around a little before it goes all wonky. Posting to my blog or even leaving comments on other blogs is out of the question. (SO sad....)
While there is the family desktop in working order, this computer is located in a partially finished room in our upstairs expandable space....with NO heat. If you put two and two together: 2 degree weather + no heat= no computer time for me! NOW you see where I'm coming from?!?!
I'm holding out hope for a new laptop or a repaired laptop when the income tax refund comes into play (soon, I hope!) so I can get back to writing (and playing!) in the blog world. I really miss it!!!
I've got several blogs lined up for the Daily Blog Review, I still have to post about my "year in review" and "decade in review", not to mention "my word of the year" and "my verse for the year"....God is really working on my self-worth....(that's a hint)
That's about all of the cold I can stand for right now. But, thankfully, it's going above freezing all this week. Can you say heat wave???
My hope is that my faithful followers will stick around. I can't wait to get caught up with everyone!
Until next time,
Arrivederci!
You can take any and all the time you ever want or need. This is your space & if you need to take a little break every now again you do that. You needed to have that time to cherish and process the reality of your son's life, blogs can wait. You are in my prayers.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry for your pain, Lisa. You just take care of yourself and we'll be here when you get back.
ReplyDeleteThought about you earlier this month and then, well, you know how MY month went down.
ReplyDeleteMan I wish I was rich and could send you a laptop.
About the post on my blog, HAH! I had written that a few days before I got sick and had it scheduled to post.
But NOW I am home and recovering and have been ordered to do nothing but sit on my computer.
I'm so sorry Lisa but, I'm also glad you can find the strength to work through the more difficult days.
ReplyDeleteI too have been taking lots of time off for different reasons. Eventually I'll sit down and rejoin the blogspere too.
Your dedicated follower,
Lucy :)
Lisa, I had no idea. I am terribly sorry for your loss. I hope you and your family are finding some comfort during this difficult time.
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing something some personal with us. I'm glad you're back, and look forward to getting to know you better.
Hugs.
I was so sad to read that. I am sorry for the pain that all causes you. Now please tell me it's over 2 now??? brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
ReplyDeleteCara
support you for friendship mom
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